I need to go to the dentist.
I’ve been putting it off for a little while now, not because I’m afraid of the dentist but because I can’t really afford too. I actually am neutral about the dentist. I like having the knowledge that my teeth are (relatively) healthy actually because I have recurring nightmares about my teeth. Have done most of my adult live. They’re all pretty much the same, my teeth go wonky in my mouth, one of them crosses over the other and it’s all pretty messed up really.
Loosing my teeth is one of my phobias I guess, which gives me anxiety and those dreams once every now and then – depending on how my teeth actually are.
The thing is I know my teeth are in pretty bad shape but there’s not a lot that can be done about some of the problems. Years of Pica has pretty worn my back teeth down and I’ve lost most of the enamel. I had great teeth once but now they’re very sensitive, I have at least three fillings and a crown at the back. I’ve had root canal too (not as bad as I thought) and will no doubt have to have it again some day.
To be honest, what I think I need is my fillings sorted at the back and a scraping.
I’m not sure I can afford it.
How sad is that? That the basic care I need for my teeth is out of my ability to afford. And I’m not the only one. If I need another crown, I’m screwed, cause I definitely do not have £185. I can afford the check-up if I get it done next month. Afford maybe a filling if I put aside some money from the next couple of months (NHS Wales Dentist Charges). But anything else more complicated and that’s it. I have to suffer.
I’m glad I’m not in any pain. Mostly it’s a minor annoyance at the moment, hurts now and then, and I don’t need my teeth scraped at the front. I have a tiny chip on a front tooth from biting a fork really hard on Saturday – which is how this all started – and I don’t need that sorting (you don’t notice it unless I point it out) but I am aware of how long it’s been since I last went.
Before I got married I think.
How sad it is that I’ve been avoiding some basic care because I can’t afford it. And I’m not the only one. Millions of people are in pain and suffering because they can’t afford the care they desperately need. After a while, clove oil and Oragel just don’t cut it. And we need our teeth, it’s not like my old cat Micky, who only had his fangs and was able to mush everything up in his gums. Including his biscuits.
I don’t want to have to mush my biscuits.
So I will go the dentist and see what happens and hopefully I won’t need too much work (or another crown).